VW Buses.

I have loved these automobiles for as long as I can remember. I think they are the greatest thing ever. I would give my left arm and leg to buy one of them (okay, that's pushing it a bit...) but I need to own one. I wish I could buy one and travel the country blasting psychedelic tunes. I would live in it and travel around this planet. Man, I wish that could be my life. If I wasn't on planning on moving to Montreal then I'd probably buy one and do just that. I seriously need to fall into a large sum of cash to buy one. Though, this one is only going for about 3,000 on ebay. Hmmmmm...... I am tempted. I hate wanting something so bad and not being able to have it.

sheep.

I'm starting to research colleges in NYC, just incase. I really don't know what's going on. I should be more upset over this, but I'm not.

Nothing lasts for long.

Relationships.

They are weird.

Complicated.

Stressful.

Draining.

Amazing.

Weird.

It's weird how men and women are so different from one another. We pretty much are completely different. Usually have different interests, emotions, views, etc. Yet, when we get into a couple we match so well. Well sometimes. Sometimes those differences show and it can turn into an awful mess. When things are good, they are usually really good. When things are bad, they're horrible.

Every single couple I know have broken up or are breaking up at this moment. Things can just go so wrong in an instant. One day you're great and the next you're screaming things are each other you'd never thought you would say. I have a hard time understanding relationships. I knew exactly what I wanted to say about this topic but it's just so weird to me, I can't type it out.

All I know is that sometimes in my relationship I go through phases where I stop and I evaluate what my relationship means to me. I rate it, in away. I evaluate my happiness. Why be with someone if you're not completely happy? Sure the thought of breaking up is scary and being alone is not a nice thought but wouldn't you rather be alone then be with someone and not be happy? I'm happy in mine, but that's because I make myself happy before my SO makes me happy. I can't always depend on someone to make me happy. I think that's the first step. If you're not happy with who you are, in your life, situations, job, etc. You wont be happy in the relationship either. Just my opinion though.


.... I don't know where I'm going with this.

i was raised on robbery.

woke up, it was a chelsea morning,
and the first thing i knew,
there was milk and toast and honey and a
bowl of oranges too,
and the sun poured in like butterscotch
and stuck to all my senses.
-chelsea morning, joni mitchell.

I have this massive obsession over New York City. There is just something about this city that pulls me in and wont let me go. I guess it does that for a lot of people. If I had my way, I'd move there in a heartbeat. But because I'm Canadian and there's lots of paper work, it's a bit difficult. Maybe not impossible but defiantly not something I can do right now. Hopefully within the next 10 years or so. I know I wont be happy with myself if I never make it there. It's my biggest goal in life. There's just so much history and life involved with that city. Everywhere you go there is someone around, there is a bar open, a pub, a book store, etc. Everything you ever need is at your finger tips. I'm moving to Montreal in a few months and even though I'm very excited about it, it just isn't enough for me. In my yearbook, I wrote "In ten years I'll be living in New York City" That was almost 6 years ago. I still have a few years to go to make that true but it might be hard. But even back when I was in grade 12, I knew I wanted to live there.

Oh one of these days, I guess.

a thousand kisses deep.

On Sunday night I witnessed something incredible. Something I never thought would happen in my lifetime.

I saw Leonard Cohen live.

It was absolutely amazing. It brought tears to my eyes. Goosebumps covered my body the entire time. Hearing "Suzanne", "Hallelujah", "I'm Your Man" and other classics I just couldn't believe it. He is truly an amazing poet, performer and singer. He's pushing 70 or so years old but would it seem like it? Not at all. His voice sounded like a 20 yr old and he even ran on stage a few times. Even though we were sitting the very last row on the balcony, it didn't seem like a bad spot at all. Because knowing I was just sitting there watching and listening to him, I didn't care where I was in the building. Thank God for binoculars because I watched the show mostly through those and it made it feel like I was in the front row.

It could possibly be his last tour and I am so happy I was able to go. I will never forget such a show.